Yelp, it’s second semester of senior year. The time of year we are all anxiously waiting to graduate and ‘move on’ with our life. Happy and carefree. Living life.
But………I’ll admit it.
I’m struggling. Big time.
In a time of excitement in my life, graduating college, a potential marriage within the next year…. I should be so excited.
But I’m panicking.
And not like the cute kind, but like the breathe in a paper bag, throw up kind of panic. I honestly never realized until this year how much of a planner I am.
Recently one of my pastors asked me if I had to have all my ‘ducks in a row’ before I could get married. I shocked myself by admitting yes.
He, along with about five to ten other people have helped me to realize it’s OK to not have life altogether, that it may be awhile before I have it together.
The past few weeks I have been trying to learn how to give up the control and the safety I have in my life, and hand it over to God. I have finally realized I don’t need 50 people call me for an interview. I just need one. The one GOD is going to bring into my life, not the one that I, Arianne Prichard, bring.
I’m just not that awesome.
Matthew 6:25-34 and Philippians 4:6-7 are life long verses for a worrier like me. In the last few weeks I have clung desperately to them. (P.s. you should read them!)
I think we can all relate to this limbo feeling, and this feeling of uncertainty. But, taking life one day at a time and finding joys in the small moments – like when I did get a call back for a job – and be excited for them, even if they don’t work out.
God used my breaking point to draw me close to Him again, and to again find joy in applying for jobs.
So where ever you are in life, in limbo like me, or in a successful career, know that there is someone out there that you can always cling to. Someone who will always listen to your fears and worries. Who will comfort you when you are lost – far better than a best friend or a significant other can. God doesn’t get tired of listen to you worry about the future, or about your fear of moving back to your parents farm and milking cows forever, He just doesn’t.
Lean into Him this week friends, and stop trying to take control of your life —-panic attacks and meltdowns are the worst! And let someone else who is a lot stronger than you deal with it.
Peace and Love friends, I’ll be praying.